Pieces

Earlier I attempted to remove little reminders of someone I wanted to forget, but I just couldn't bring myself to do this 100%.

There are pieces of these reminders everywhere. Plus, there is the memory in my everyday life, and the pain of interacting with this person as if we had never known each other than at a superficial level.

There are times when I feel like this drives me insane, and I get angry thinking about why I need to do this. Then, there are moments when I wish to "unhide" all these reminders, to relive the good memories, to reminisce.

Right now I feel so scattered, almost as if I'm no longer sure of myself, or what or who I want to continue to be. There are twinges of sadness, rage, and momentary happiness. Yet sometimes I feel apathy and numbness, without the resolve that I seek.