Decision

An important decision has been reached in the life of Joyce Lo as of November 14, 2007.

No one won in this situation and it is agreed that no one affected by this decision felt easy or will ever feel the same as before.

It is hoped however that it will get better in the future and that something, perhaps a friendship (if not anything more), can still be salvaged.

There is no going back beyond this point. Yet, there is no regret because the truth must be told for everyone's sake.

Joyce Lo is relieved at the moment, but she is still a mess at this point.

She wants the world to know that she never took anything for granted from this experience. She will never trade any minute she spent during this time for anything in the world.

Joyce Lo will cherish these moments for ever.

Weakness

Recently a friend commented on my weak immune system and increased propensity to fall ill this past year. She asked me whether it was because I was getting old, or simply because I was beginning to fall into an unhealthy lifestyle of overindulgence, money, and stressful work.

Thinking back, none of those things seem to be the main contributors. Although the majority of family and friends may think the reasons are due to job stress and money matters, I am seeing a new pattern of anxiety and nervousness that surrounds me, an unhappiness that lurks in the shadows that differs from the so called "monetary concerns"... a small bit of depression if you will...

If you were ME, would you confront the problem or walk away from it?

I am tempted to walk away from it all... but will it save me or make it worse?

Johnny Cash's "Gambler" says it best:

Written by Don Schlitz

"You got to know when to hold 'em; know when to fold 'em.
"Know when to walk away; know when to run.
"You don't ever count your money while you're sittin' at the table.
"There'll be time enough for countin' when the dealin' is done."

I'll guess I'll only find out when the dealin's done :S