Losing It

Lately, I've been working way too much. Just way too many hours. This results in alot of stress (both on the work and personal front), as well as a very foggy existence as I trudge day in and out of the office at extremely odd hours and weekends.

At every free moment I feel like I have to live it to the fullest. Yet there is this sadness in me that wonders why I'm not living every moment the same way anyways. There shouldn't be an exclusivity in doing the things you want to do, but yet there is.

Yesterday, I lost something I spent alot of energy, money, time, and enjoyment on. Although it's not the end of the world and it can be replaced, I'm still really angry and disappointed at myself for not realizing that I had lost it when I should have. This leads me to think that perhaps I've been spending too much of my time and energy on work.

Unfortunately I am also not spending enough time and energy on my family. Sigh... I really admire the people who love what they do for a living and earn enough to live on that.